Wow...life's hittin kinda hard on your girl right now...My mom is driving me CRAZY!, schools gettin kinda stressful, and my social life is so outta wack right now its not even funny. Me and my mom can hardly stand to be in the same room with each other for more than 5 minutes...we're always goin at it. (sigh)...She just doesnt get me at all and it feels like everything that I do is wrong...wether I did something or not! She's forever putting me down and making me feel bad about myself(wether its purposly or not) and I dont know why!...My academic status is calapsing before my very eyes and I dont even know how to begin to fix it! Honestlty...I think Ive just become very lazy and distracted and Ive done this to myself...Im not really sure exactly where I fit in at school. I mean, Its not like Im an isolated nerd or anything. Im a very neutural person so I can fit in with any type of group from the "populars" to the "semi populars", to the "less known people"...Its not like I have no friends cause Im cool with everyone. Just wish I had someone that I could truely let loose and totally be myself wit without being judged. And someone to hang out with after we get outta class.(Thats mostly my own doing though. I always got something set up to do after school...) Plus, I got too much boy drama goin on!!! I mean one boy likes me, then another one likes me, the the first one stops liking me but gets jealous when another boy tries talkin to me, so he starts likin me again. And I got a boy that Im physically and emotionally attatched to thats goin off 2 college next year,so im upset about that, and 4 some reason i keep running into all these old boys ive already delt with in the past tryin to talk to me again!!!...And to top all this drama in my world right now, Ive gained at least 5 pounds in my thighs so the big booty curse(or blessing according to my male friends) in my family has hit me hard......But fortunately, Ive decided to turn my life around before it goes from stressful to disastorous!!!! Some good and luck is startin to come my way. My grades are begining to improve, Im about to start working out( even though everyones telling me Im not fat), Ive decided to start dating and control these boys and not let them control me. Im also gonna try being a bit more social than I already am.I admit I do have sort of a low self esteem, but my confidence level is begining to build. Yea me and my mom are still goin at it hard, but Im begining to learn to just brush her off and not let her get to me as much as she used to. Plus Ive discoverd new ways of expressing myself so my stress if starting to lift off my shoulders so heavy. Ive began writing hip-hop and R&B songs. In fact Ive written more than several already and their really good (maybe ill post em on here one day). And Ive been drawing so much lately...Ive finally created a style of my own that I am extremely comfortable with using. I know ive said this alot but I will be posting these pictures soon. Ive also began designing dresses and people are really starting to take notice to them. Ive been introduced to several seniors that are just beggin me to design them a prom dress. And I met a woman at the hair salon who wants to introduce me to her daughter thats a young fashion designer with her own business...Yep, things are startin to improve